2013-11-30, at 20:37:52
I absolutely love Zoe and Louise's new series "ChummyChatter" on youtube,
so far they've dealt with really important topics like setting boundaries, saying no et.c.
I feel like this week's ChummyChatter is on a very important topic,
it doesn't matter if you're in an abusive relationship, or if there's another aspect of the relationship that is making you depressed or making you feel bad about yourself, you have to have the courage to walk away.
If you're feeling really bad about your relationship,
and you feel like you've tried everything to change it, but everything's just going around in circles,
you have to walk away. To save yourself. Sometimes you have to be really selfish, because you can't let anyone else ruin your selfesteem and your life. As Zoe says, "Your problem is you, and his problem is him".
When it comes to abusive relationships,
whether they're verbal or physical, there's no way you can make it work.
My mum's always told me that if a man hits you twice, he's going to hit you again.
In abusive relationship, there's really no question about whether you should stay or go.
Go. Leave, and don't turn back.
Sometimes you have to put yourself first, set your own boundaries and say no.

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2013-11-30, at 14:35:26
I've been awfully busy with an art project lately,
it's due this Thursday and my group and I still have a lot to do.
Today's been great, though! I had to get up early because we had a school event,
we sang with the choir and managed not to mess up completely.
After I got home I've done absolutely nothing, which I think I really needed...
It's probably time for a nap now though, and then I'm going to spend the rest of my day reading The Great Gatsby.
And tomorrow's the first of December!
I'm finally starting to feel a bit festive!

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2013-11-28, at 13:36:55
Hi lovelies!
I got home from school about two hours ago, and I just finished recording a video!
I don't know when I'll have time to edit it, though, but it'll probably be sometime this weekend.
What kind of video it is is still a secret, but you're very welcome to guess, and my gold eyeliner is probably a clue. ;)
P.S. Never ever ever ever ever EVER put Maybelline's 24 hr color tattoo on your lips, it really won't come off...

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It's Snowing!

2013-11-26, at 12:54:26
I was quite surprised to see it was Snowing when I looked out my window the other day! ;)
My brain doesn't seem to think I need to sleep any more,
(which I obviously still do) because I've had such difficulties sleeping lately. It usually takes me forever to fall asleep and I wake up every 15-30 minutes. I barely slept at all last night,
because apparently my brain thinks it's OK to wake up at 3 a.m. and just not go back to sleep again.
I was so disoriented when my alarm finally rang, and I actually wanted to cry because I was so tired.
What a great start to my Tuesday!
Oh well, tomorrow's my last exam (which I'll probably do rubbish at but I don't care because it's my LAST EXAM!) and I'm going driving again today! Still a bit scared, though, I'll have to admit

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How I make my gifs.

2013-11-25, at 17:37:17
I've gotten quite a lot of questions about how I make my gifs that I upload every now and then,
and the answer is really simple:
If you ignore all the pervs and other creepy people, it's a nice site to meet interesting people on.
And stalk gorgeous people on.
The only other drawback (apart from the creepy people) I can think of is the fact that there's no
gifyo app available for Android phones yet. I hope they'll make one soon!

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Cell biology.

2013-11-25, at 11:47:07
I thought this joke goes quite well with what I'm going to spend my whole day studying,
which is cell biology. I have my Biology exam tomorrow, and after that it's just the Maths exam that's left on Wednesday. I wrote one of the toughest exams I've ever written today, which was Religion studies.
"Discuss ethics in media in the light of the Christian view on humanity."
How about nope.
Oh well, this was my last RS course ever, and I only have two exams left. Things are looking brighter!

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I ain't running no more.

2013-11-24, at 22:05:00
I've always thought that tragic love stories are the most beautiful ones,
until I got stranded in my own tragic love story, that is.
As you all probably know, I haven't been feeling great lately. I've been trying to cheer myself up by spending
time with friends, going to concerts, talking to new people, watching movies, watching TV-series, reading books,
studying, sleeping, eating, studying et.c. The list goes on forever.
But nothing really helps, because he's always there in the back of my mind. I'm always thinking
"What would I do if we were still together?" or "What would he think about this?"
It's been nearly a month now, and although I was the one who couldn't deal with our mess anymore,
I also can't deal with this.
It's so much easier when all you feel after the break-up is anger and hatred,
and so much more difficult when all you feel is love.
I thought I was better, but then I started crying every night again. I really can't explain how sick
I am of crying. I cried even more when a teacher approached me after school and asked me how I was doing,
she told me I look sad this year, when I seemed so happy last year.
(A huge thank you to her, though, it's nice to know that there are people who notice and people who care!)
I also wouldn't have survived without my friends. They've all done their share to make me feel better.
Some of them know more about this whole ordeal, and some of them know a bit less, but they've all
been there for me and supported me, and given me advice when I've asked for it.
I know, in my heart, that I ought to let go.
That I can't live on like this. That I need to move on.
It's not easy to get over someone you spent four years running after.
But now I ain't running no more. I did what I could, but I couldn't catch you.
I couldn't keep you. And I couldn't help you.
I'm out.
I expect my blogging will be very sporadic up until Christmas, since I still need to piece myself back together, and I'm also very busy up until the Holidays.
I hope you'll endure. :)
Both of the pictures are from weheartit.

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Catching Fire.

2013-11-23, at 13:34:43
Whelp - once again writing a hurried post just before I have to hurry to catch the bus!
I'm going to see Catching Fire with a few friends today,
and I had planned on dressing up as a jeweler from District 1 (which would apparently be my profession and my district if I lived in Panem), but I felt a bit too self-conscious in the outfit so I decided to just go with my hoodie,
camo leggings and boots. As usual.
I tried to contour my face, though, so that I'd look like a starved tribute, haha!
Did it work?
I'm so excited to FINALLY see Catching Fire! <3
Have you seen it yet? :)

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2013-11-22, at 16:42:01
A cheeky gif from earlier today.
I hope you've had a lovely Friday so far!
My German exam went OK, although it turned out to be a kind of guessing game in the end.
I've been unbelievably tired today, so I've tried chugging down a lot of coffee but it hasn't really helped, 
so I can't claim I've been very productive today.
I'm going to try to get some studying done now though, then it's time for sauna and then ZzzZzzZzZzzzZz
(= bed).
If I have time, and don't fall asleep, I might post a cover later that I recorded today. :)

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Hannibal Night.

2013-11-21, at 20:45:43
Since they've started broadcasting Hannibal on Finnish TV now,
mum and I have started watching it together every Thursday evening. I watched the first episodes of the
TV-series a while ago, on my own, but I forgot about it after a while because I didn't really have time to start
watching a new series at the time.
It's not a show for the faint of heart, but it's awfully clever and although I'm usually quite sensitive
when it comes to series and films, I can watch it without getting nightmares.
It's definitely a series I'd recommend to everyone interested in crime series, with a twist. :)

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A trip to the hospital.

2013-11-20, at 15:58:00
Yellow! I've spent the day on the bus to Turku, at the hospital and then on the bus home.
It's sick that the bus ride takes so long. *le sigh*
Oh well, at least I got to visit my friend, who's in hospital for pneumonia. I bought her a chocolate bar,
because apparently hospital food isn't very grand.
I also really don't understand why they feel the need to build hospitals as if they're a maze you're never supposed to get in (or out) of. Luckily, a handsome guy seemed to sense I was lost and offered to help me.
I also bought some kind of aloe vera water that's supposed to taste like pomegranate for myself, 
they could've warned me it contains "bits of aloe vera-gel". It feels really funky to drink, so I think I'll leave it.

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Jacksgap hit 3M!

2013-11-20, at 09:45:45
Hi guys!
I don't have an exam today, so I just woke up to the wonderful news that Jack and Finn harries have reached 3 million subscribers on their youtube channel!
A while ago, I was contacted by a girl called Kaiti, who wanted to make a video with Jacksgap fans from around the world, congratulating Jack and Finn. I, of course, accepted, and since they reached their 3 million subscribers now, the video was uploaded on Kaiti's channel.
Above you can watch the final product, where I'm featured somewhere around 04:05. :)

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500 Miles.

2013-11-18, at 16:21:19
I needed some cheering up this gloomy Monday,
the driving lesson didn't go that well (don't worry, I didn't run over anyone or anything), but we did much more advanced stuff this time than we did last time so of course it didn't go as smoothly as last time.
I stumbled across this song on Tumblr, and admit it - it makes you a thousand times happier!
I first heard it in How I Met Your Mother a few years ago, and I actually fell in love with it right from the beginning. I can understand why some people can't stand it, though. :)

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2013-11-18, at 13:53:00
Guten Tag!
I have my second driving lesson soon, and after that I'm going to bury myself in my bed with my textbooks.
Maths is probably the most horrible thing on earth, I spent ages trying to solve a problem in school today,
and when I did it the way I was supposed to, it didn't work. I actually started laughing and crying at the same time, people looked at me as if I was crazy. :')
(I think it actually shows quite well what my emotional state is like at the moment, though. I'm an emotional wreck, and it was just a matter of time before something like this would happen.)
Have a lovely day!

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Sentimental Sunday.

2013-11-17, at 19:52:27
This gif makes me feel like a horrible, horrible person. :c
I'm finally done studying for the day,
despite the fact that I started a bit late because I had a horrible headache so I decided to take a nap after having taken a painkiller, I feel like this has been an awfully productive day. 
I've studied a lot of different subjects, with short breaks to read a chapter of Sex and the City every now and then.
It's been oddly calming and comforting to spend the day in bed studying and reading, instead of in front of the computer. But it's also made me realise just how lonely I am now, because when you have a long-distance boyfriend, you have someone you need to talk to online every day.
When you don't have a long-distance boyfriend anymore, and you don't exactly have an extensive social network, you don't really have anyone to talk to either.
I still have my cat though. Cats are awesome. They purr when you scratch them. Did you know that?
Yeah, they're awesome!
I'm going to cuddle up in bed now, though, and just read for the rest of the evening.
I've made it my mission to get through at least half of the books in my book pile (you know, the half-a-metre tall pile of books, with books that I've started reading but never finished) before New Year's.
I'm a bit bummed, though, because I was supposed to sign up for an online course about Shakespeare, but apparently it started in October even though my headmistress and the website said it starts a few months from now.

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Love is just a feeling that we missed.

2013-11-17, at 11:08:45
Good morning everyone!
My cat decided to wake me up early this morning, and then proceeded to lie down in the middle of my bed to sleep. Don't you just love cats and their sassy attitudes?
Exam week is almost upon us, which means I'm spending my day with my nose buried in my textbooks.
I hope your Sunday looks a little brighter than mine! :)
The world is a jungle,
So forget the rules!

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You were my heart.

2013-11-16, at 18:15:14
I just got back home from the event.
It was kind of a success, we raised a bit of money and we had fun.
I'm dead tired now though, so I'll probably head straight to bed after the sauna.
Good night!

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Horns and Halos.

2013-11-16, at 10:15:54

I heard this song for the first time on the glam rock cruise last Saturday,
when Jussi69 (from The 69 Eyes) played it while he was DJing before Reckless Love came on stage.
I immediately heard that it was Michael Monroe's song, because he has this very distinct style and unique voice, that I absolutely love.
I've been in love with the song ever since!

I have to go to the children's even we're hosting now, and I'm spending my whole day painting on children's faces there, so you probably won't hear from me before tonight.
Have an amazing Saturday!

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2013-11-15, at 19:30:33
My friends and I are hosting a children's party tomorrow,
to raise money for prom. We have a bunch of different activities planned for them
(I'm in charge of face painting with a friend) and Nora came up with the genius idea of letting the children
make small bows and use cotton swabs as arrows.
I think it proves just how much of a child I still am,
that I ran around shooting arrows at everyone all day in school today.
People were quite annoyed by the end of the day, but I had a lot of fun. :D

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Cheshire Cat.

2013-11-14, at 19:35:40
A while ago I was feeling restless, anxious and quite down,
so I decided to pick up my crayons (yes, crayons) and draw for a while. I ended up drawing the Cheshire Cat,
which wasn't the easiest task considering I haven't used crayons for at least 4 years.
I still think it turned out allright though. :)

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Throwback Thursday: Past and Present.

2013-11-14, at 16:57:54
2010 - 2013.
I've changed a bit, haven't I?
In a way, I think I was more confident back then. I didn't know who I was, but I wasn't afraid to be someone.
Now I know myself better, but I'm definitely not as cheeky as I used to be.
I'm not sure whether this is good or bad, but my self-esteem dropped a lot a while ago because of reasons,
but I'm currently working on figuring out who I am outside of a relationship.
I'm just trying to redefine myself and reinvent myself, and so far I think I'm doing a good job.

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A bit of a situation...

2013-11-13, at 18:58:39
Yesterday my mum wold me there was water in our basement,
I thought she meant like a small puddle or something so I started wondering why she didn't come back up for a while. When I went to check on her, I got quite a shock...
Our whole basement was flooded, and the water was about 20-30 cm deep. Mum tried getting some of the water out with a small pump that we have, but my uncle had to come in with a bigger pump and they managed to get all of the water out. There's still water rising in the well of our cellar, though, so mum has to run down and turn on the pump every two hours, leave it on for an hour, run down and turn it off et.c. 
We're thinking it might be a blocked pipe or something,
even though it's rained a lot before, this has never happened earlier. It was quite a surreal feeling to stand on the lowest step of the stairs and see a sea of water spreading throughout the entire basement.
(The temptation to push Whiskey into the water when he was stroking up against my leg was real. He almost managed it himself, though, because at one point he looked as if he wanted to jump onto a piece of cardboard that came floating by)
I managed to save one of dad's shoes that was floating quite close to the stairs, but then I had to leave for my driving lesson.
So yesterday was quite a crazy day, and mum hardly got any sleep last night because she had to go and check on the pump every now and then. Luckily, though, dad comes home from work tonight, so they can take turns on running down to switch on/off the pump.
Somehow these things always seem to happen when dad's at work!

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Can you guess what I just did?

2013-11-12, at 20:33:11
Can you guys guess what I just did?
I just had my very first driving lesson! It was my first time ever driving a car, and I didn't even:
- Crash the car
- Run anyone over
- Damage the car in any way
It really wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be!
I know people in Sweden usually start driving a lot earlier than we do here in Finland, 
here we usually start driving about a month before we turn 18, so we don't have very much time to learn
how to drive properly.

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Post-cruise depression.

2013-11-12, at 09:34:58
I got my own cabin during the cruise last weekend - luxurious!
Yello everyone,
I still can't get over how fudging amazing Reckless Love were. I can't stop listening to their music,
it's the perfect party music, it makes you happy and excited!
Being back in school and back living my usual life feels terribly boring now, it's in times like these that I wish I had a time-machine.
Olli's such an amazing singer! (They're all extremely talented <3)

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Reckless Love @ Viking Grace.

2013-11-10, at 21:25:23
Like I said, I didn't snap very many pictures,
because I wanted to be completely in the moment. These are the only two decent pictures that I got.
I'm not quite sure on how long they played, my guess is just over an hour, but it felt like five minutes.
This has truly, genuinely been the best weekend of my entire life, and I can't wait until I get to see them live again sometime. They're such an amazing live-band! <3
I'm completely knackered right now, though, because I didn't sleep last night.
Good night lovelies!

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You ain't seen nothing like me yet.

2013-11-10, at 16:29:58
It's been one of those days, again.
One of those "Love sucks, I'm never falling in love again, and I'm going to spend the rest of my life forever alone as a crazy cat lady" kind of day.
But it got a bit brighter after another encounter with Olli from Reckless Love.
(I really need to stop disturbing him while he's eating)

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Good Morning Stockholm!

2013-11-10, at 08:51:22
Last night was an odd night for me.
Reckless Love started playing around half past 12, and they were done sometime around 2. 
I must've looked a bit tipsy when I was making my way back to the cabin, because I'd been jumping around in heels all evening, and I was high on Love. Reckless Love.
The concert was unbelievably amazing,
all of those high-pitched screams were done without playback, they played a lot of songs from their new album and they also played a lot of songs from their old albums. The crowd was amazing and it felt like a great, big party. I can truly say I was "So happy I could die".
I didn't take very many pictures,
I only snapped a few right at the beginning and then I left my bag in a back room.
I don't think you should experience a concert through a camera lense, but I have some really sweet mental
images of Olli's abs. ;)

One more thing before I finish typing this: Olli's a sex god on stage. There are no words to describe how sexy he is, and I feel truly sorry for everyone who wasn't there to witness it yesterday.

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Stop The Bullying.

2013-11-09, at 17:27:32

This poem was originally intended for Jack and Finn Harries' anti-bullying campaign.
If you'd like to help me out a bit, you can reblog it from my Tumblr >here<, and help me spread it that way.
People need to realise that they need to act when they notice that someone's being bullied,
and not just dismiss it as "playful banter".

Mark was fairly normal
Or so he’d always thought
But somehow he got singled out
And by his school friends caught 

They broke and bruised his body
And soon they reached his mind
They told him he was nothing
Until he became blind 

He was not the only one
For similar was Lucy’s fate
They tore her down to nothing
And now all she knows is hate 

They put all kinds of stupid thoughts
Up in her poor head
But they fail to realise
That soon she might be dead

Yet those are not the only ones
There are also people who
Don’t have any real friends
There’s no one they can turn to 

They’re not invited to the parties
Ignored by all their “friends”
They’re forced to sit and play alone
And have to bring their own pens 

The problem goes beyond the schools
Beyond the parks and playgrounds
It’s also on the internet
In messages and sounds 

It’s not just the children
Though sometimes they are cruel
It’s also grown-up adults
Who should be more difficult to fool 

What’s even worse than all of this
Are the people who don’t dare
To speak up when they notice
Someone crying in despair 

If you ever see someone
Who’s picked on, lonely, hurt
Please give them a helping hand
And teach them they’re not dirt.

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Glam Rock Cruise.

2013-11-09, at 15:02:52
The reason I've been so excited for today,
is the glam rock cruise on Viking Grace. Reckless Love, and a couple other bands are playing there tonight,
and since Reckless Love is one of my favourite bands, I decided I'm going. And dad didn't really have a say in it, haha. ;) Nah but he was OK with it, so once again: The perks of having a dad that works at Viking Line.

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2013-11-09, at 11:58:33
These books landed in my mailbox a few days ago,
I ordered them at (as usual), and I was ecstatic when I finally got them!
Unfortunately, I have an enormous pile of books to read before I have the time to read these. :(

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Ed Sheeran - I See Fire.

2013-11-08, at 21:20:32
Oh, should my people fall
Then surely I'll do the same
Confined in mountain halls
We got too close to the flame
Calling out father hold fast and we will
Watch the flames burn auburn on the mountain side
Desolation comes upon the sky
Ed Sheeran recently released a new song for The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug,
and I'm pretty sure I've just died and gone to heaven. As most of you probably know, I'm a huge fan of Ed Sheeran, he's my ginger Jesus and his music never fails to move me emotionally.
This, though, is better than anything he's ever done. He truly has the voice of an angel, and if I could marry his voice, I would!
The lyrics are also so fitting for The Hobbit, and there's honestly nothing negative anyone could say about this song.
I'm looking forward to seeing The Desolation of Smaug even more now!

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My life.

2013-11-08, at 20:42:47
This is totes me...
Hi lovelies!
My day's actually been OK today. I had a free period of two hours in school today, but the internet in our school was acting up and started working after my free period was over. Just my luck!
My sister just spent a few hours here because her daughter's having her birthday party so she thought she'd leave them alone for a while.
I'm probably going to bed soon, though. I haven't gotten very much sleep this week either, and I have to be well-rested tomorrow! I'll tell you tomorrow why, but I can reveal that my weekend will be epic! ;)

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Inspire yourself.

2013-11-08, at 11:01:28
I've been having some issues with finding motivation and inspiration for school lately,
especially since I have a number of larger projects due quite soon. It really helped me, though, when I sat down for a few minutes and scrolled through pictures of King's College in London, the school I want to go to after I graduate.
So if you feel like you can't be bothered with school, try to inspire yourself in a similar way! :)

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Omegle Prankster.

2013-11-07, at 16:02:47
I've had a long day in school once again,
and I couldn't sleep last night so I've been going on overdrive all day. My energy's starting to fade now, though,
and I still have a lot of school work to be done this evening. 
I'm still a complete, utter, broken mess, hence the lack of posts on my blog. I'm not going to apologize or anything for this, because I don't think it's anything I need to apologize for. If I don't feel well, I don't have to post, it's as simple as that. :)

I wanted to share Joe's latest video with you, though,
because he made me smile. A lot. It's so nice of him to surprise his viewers like that!
And it's not like he's entirely unattractive either...
I guess the Sugg siblings just got good genes. :)

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One Direction - Story of My Life.

2013-11-03, at 18:18:01

Written on these walls are the colours that I can't change
Leave my heart open but it stays right here in its cage
One Direction released their new music video today,
"Story of My Life" and I actually really like it. It's just my kind of music - with guitars, soft voices and lots of glorious harmonies. And the lyrics... oh the lyrics! *swoon*
It's a bit heartbreak-y, just the way I like it (and need it) right now. I can't deal with overly preppy songs when I'm in this mood. I can feel this healing the cracks in my heart, though. 
There's nothing better than music when you're down!

The video's nicely made too, I like the "flashbacks" to when they were young.
For some reason, I really like watching them working with the photographs. They look so concentrated and gorgeous!

I'm going to keep it on replay while I try to finish a few presentations for school tonight.
What do you think? Do you like Story of My Life? :)

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Look of the Day.

2013-11-02, at 20:43:00
Sweater - Lindex, Skirt - Gina Tricot, Ring - Ted Baker of London.
I had another great day today,
with a relaxing morning and then I went to a family dinner with my parents, grandparents, my uncle and two of my cousins. It was actually a Christmas dinner, haha! 
Halloween's barely over and we've already started celebrating and preparing for Christmas!
I was actually very happy with my outfit today, comfy, warm and nice!
I'm not sure if it's "acceptable" to wear a sweater over a skater skirt like this, but the skirt's too big so it just looks weird if I try tucking a shirt or a sweater under it.
How's your day been? :)

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Zoe's Autumn LookBook.

2013-11-02, at 19:14:19
I've mentioned Zoella earlier on my blog,
and she recently gave me a reason to mention her again. She uploaded her Autumn LookBook,
which is basically a video featuring a few outfits she's loving this Autumn.
All of her outfits are simply impeccable, and she's absolutely stunning herself. She's the kind of person that I want to be, and I'm so jealous of how naturally skinny she is.
Fun fact: Her boyfriend (Alfie a.k.a. Pointlessblog) helped her film the video. It's beautifully put together,
and I think it's clearly visible in her eyes and her smile that Alfie was the man behind the camera.
Seeing their love for each other makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside!

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You're not as brave as you were at the start.

2013-11-02, at 12:25:10
My outfit yesterday.
My friends and I had a movie night last night,
where we watched The Avengers, ate a lot of food and spent a little too much time drooling over
Chris Hemsworth's muscles and hair. It was the first time in a really long time that I can honestly say I was happy. I didn't have to think about anything negative.
Sometimes it's amazing how much better your friends can make you feel!
Redefine yourself, reinvent yourself and let your rawness show.

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